Thursday, December 10, 2015

HE Wants Me Right Here

Over the past 72 hours, God has kept me quite busy.

I've spent a significant amount of time on the computer searching job openings and graduate studies.
*Ruled out going back to school.
*Found several positions which interested me. Discussed them with Brian.
*Updated my resume and drafted cover letters.
*Applied for three of the positions.
*Scheduled an interview for one.
*Learned about another opening and applied for it.
*Waiting on a small detail before I submit the fifth application.
And with every move I make, I ask God to lead me. I seek Him because - with all my heart - I want to go where HE wants me to go. Remembering all the way that I can have courage, because God has a plan.

Oh, I still do not know what my future holds. A significant part of me would really like to have a travel guide detailing the steps I am going to take over the next weeks and months. It would be so comfortable to know. Yes, to know where I am going and what I am to do.
But that just isn't the way my Father is operating with me. HE is requiring me to trust. HE is enjoying my dependence - listening to my prayers and providing peace for my anxious heart. And I am realizing, in this moment, I am right where HE wants me to be. I am doing precisely what HE wants me to do.
That is:

I am at God's feet relishing in my complete need for HIM.

And if not knowing the details of my next weeks and months, if being constantly "on my knees" makes me a bit uncomfortable? Well then, I suppose I have learned that God is a whole lot more concerned with my position in Him than He is with my comfort level on my own.
And I, for one, am grateful.

How about you, friend?
Are you walking in dependence on HIM today? Or trying to figure life out on your own?



Jenn said...

Thanks Karen. My life has been "up in the air" for years now, so your post was a good reminder that God is doing something, even when it feels like I'm not really getting anywhere.

Karen Hossink said...

Jenn - I'm glad God would use my words to remind you of His goodness. :)
Keep holding on!