Tuesday, November 01, 2016

HE Answers

LORD, I don't know what I'm doing. Please lead me. Please show me the way to go, and the things to do. I am completely dependent on You!

This has been my prayer as a mother for years.
Because every day is a new adventure. Full of some situations I have not encountered before, and others which still have me baffled.
I don't know what to do, and so I seek HIS help.
Last week, God reminded me once again - HE has heard my prayers for my children.
And HE answers.

I was on my way to feeling better, but not completely "there" yet, had just walked in the door from an amazing worship event (Did anyone else attend the Worship Night in America?), and was ready to go to bed. But Matthew asked me if I would pleeeease help him with an essay he was writing for a class.
I was reluctant, but what could I say?
I mean, he's my son.
I have to help him, right?
So I knelt by his desk and discovered a couple things. 1) This was an assignment he'd been given quite a while ago, and had only just started working on it that evening. 2) By "just started" on it, I mean he had a topic and a very rough outline.
I tried to help my son begin the actual writing of the essay, but before I could put two thoughts together, my brain just said, NO. It was not going to think, or produce, or create, or work, or anything else.
So I shook my head and said, "Sorry, pal. I just can't do it. I have to go to bed."
He had a copy of an essay we'd worked on a month ago, so I suggested he look at that one as a guide. Then I prayed for him, said good-night, and went to bed.
And as I lay falling asleep, I realized - God must have just answered my prayer for guidance. I was too worn out to think clearly, and God used my condition to lead me to the right decision: Not bailing my son out of a trial of his own doing. I prayed, You're right, LORD. I don't have to help him with problems he has created for himself. But You will help him grow through natural consequences. Thank You for rescuing both of us tonight from my tendency to help too much. Thank You for leading me in the way I should go!
Then I drifted off to sleep, Matthew didn't complete his assignment, the world didn't come to an end, and I have grounds for encouraging that boy to get started on his assignments earlier.

All is well.

Karen

4 comments:

SC Mom said...

Good on you mom :) I love how the Lord works! I too help too much. My husband tells me that all the time. Have a blessed day Karen <3

Karen Hossink said...

SC Mom - Thanks. :)
I believe helps is one of my spiritual gifts - and I need God to step in and show me when I am NOT supposed to help! So thankful for HIS grace and patience with me.
Peace to you, my friend!

Denise Griffin said...

Hey Karen,
As I read your comment, I thought...imagine how God feels watching us make stupid mistakes. Especially when He's given us instructions and told us how to do it right through His word!
Just my thoughts...

Hope all is well!

God bless,

Denise

Karen Hossink said...

Denise - I've been reading about the Israelites wandering through the desert on the way to the promised land. It's so easy for me to get frustrated with them because they just wouldn't listen to Him - until I realize I have behaved just like them at times.
I am so thankful for His patience, and His grace which moves Him to keep working in me until I step into His will.