Wednesday, March 02, 2011

I Wasn't Expecting That

I love, absolutely LOVE, when God works outside my expectations.

I teach Sunday school during the first service at my church. And sometimes I find myself in another classroom between services - standing in as the 'adult in charge' until another adult can be found to serve during the second service.
Recently when this happened I was standing in the doorway, where I could see a video monitor of what was happening in the auditorium. Singing had begun and - while I couldn't hear it - I could read the words on the screen, and I longed to be in the auditorium. I wanted to be in there with my brothers and sisters in Christ, and I wanted to be singing with them.
And for a moment, I began to get irritated.
I know. Nice attitude for a Sunday morning.
I started to wonder why more people don't volunteer to help with the kids. I had already spent the first service , well - serving. Now I just wanted to be in the auditorium participating in worship.

That's when it started.

When God started speaking to my heart.

HE reminded me that worship is about so much more than singing. I remembered everything can be worship when I do it for HIM - the serving I do during the first service, and even the 'standing in' I do between services.
OK, God, I get that. I will worship You as I serve, and as I stand in. But, (as I continued to watch the TV monitor) I really want to be in THERE. I want to raise my hands and sing Your praise! I don't want to miss this opportunity to worship You with my voice.

At that moment, in spite of how noisy the kids in the room were being, I couldn't deny the way I heard God speaking to my heart. My dear Karen. I love this longing in your heart. I love that you want to get in there and lift your voice to Me. I love it. I do.
Now I'll let you in on a little secret.
I knew this delay was going to happen today. I knew you would be 'stuck' in this classroom past the start time for the second service. I knew you would want desperately to get into the auditorium so you could sing, too. I knew you would feel like crying at the thought of missing it.
I knew all this was going to happen.
And I allowed it to happen.
Because I love it when there is a longing in your heart to worship Me. I love it when you are desperate to get into My presence. And I want to develop that longing in you. It makes you even more beautiful to Me.
Fear not, dear one. Here comes your replacement.

And, sure enough, in that moment someone came and shooed me off to the auditorium.

I was not expecting God to speak to me during my delay, and in spite of my little attitude issue. But HE is not limited to what we expect, is HE!

How has God worked in your unexpected moments?

Karen

4 comments:

Leah @ Point Ministries said...

God is so tender and precious with us, isnt' He?

Glad you got to hear from Him AND worship.

leah

Ronel Sidney said...

Oh have I felt this way before espceially when my husband can't find a parking place because he was running late. I would get so irritated and God would always tell me to calm down.... He wants us to long to worship?! WOW!! Such a great way to look at the situation. Thank you!! Thank you!!

Irritable Mother said...

Leah - Yes! He worked it out perfectly so I could experience BOTH. All His ways are perfect, amen?

Ronel - I am absolutely convinced God loves it when our hearts are longing to be close to Him.
As the deer pants for water...

Patricia/NYC said...

This happened to me just today...I was so stressed out about my dentist visit this morning (cracked a part of my crown right off with a popcorn kernal)...on my way to the dentist, I kept praying for Him to keep me calm (can you tell I have a dental phobia?? lol!) & wishing I could just go home & read my Bible...the dentist walked in, took an Xray, looked at the tooth & said: "Oh, no problem, the tooth isn't compromised, I just have to file it down & you're good to go!"
Love that!! :)