Friday, March 27, 2009

His Grace IS Enough

OK, I had a nice post all written and scheduled to publish for your reading pleasure Friday morning.
Then Thursday afternoon and evening happened.
And I had so many thoughts running through my head, and emotions ravaging my heart - I couldn't leave the scheduled post alone. (Don't worry, I'll get back to it someday.) Because, for as much as I want Surviving Motherhood to be a place for you to come and receive encouragement, as much as I want to offer you hope through the storms you face each day, I also want to be real with you about my own struggles.
God is my encouragement and my source of hope. My only Source. But sometimes the struggles are so overwhelming they seem to eclipse His glory.

Check that.

Sometimes I fix my eyes on the struggles, rather than on God, so I can't see His glory. And that's what happened Thursday.

It started when I took Elizabeth shopping and to run some errands. And the trip took longer than it should have, and I was stressing about some other issues.
It escalated when I got home to find Matthew had not done the two things he was supposed to do while I was gone. The two things we discussed at length before I left. The two things he knew he needed to do.
It got worse when my little ADHD friend couldn't get a handle on himself, couldn't stay focused on a task to save his life, and started yelling at me because I wouldn't let him have his door closed. (When he can't stay focused I make him leave his door open. When it's closed, he seems to think he has a license to get distracted.)
And it came close to going through the roof when he finally sat down to do his homework, needed my help, and then refused to listen to what I was saying.

In the middle of trying to make dinner, struggling to be strong in the face of uncertainty, and floundering in my attempts to understand and deal with my son, my heart simply cried out, God, is this one too big for Your grace? Is this situation finally too much for You to handle???

Oh, in my mind I know that is not true. I know there is nothing God cannot handle.

Nothing.

But in the moment - with my eyes fixed upon the struggle - the question lingered in my heart.

God gently reminded me of His faithfulness. He reminded me of the prayers of faith I have offered for so many of my dear friends. And He assured me I could trust Him for my situation, too.

In that moment, God brought a song to my mind. A song I have grown to love because it speaks Truth to my soul. He used it to give me hope again, even in my despairing moment. And now I am sharing it with you.
If you're feeling like you might be in a situation that is too big for His grace, I pray He will bring you hope through this song, too.
Because, indeed, His grace IS enough.



May the peace of Christ reign in your heart this weekend. See you back here Monday!

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11 comments:

Jessica said...

Oh my! What a day! :-( It's tough when they yell at you. Matthew (4) just discovered yelling at mommy and I'm trying to nip it in the bud. Oh, he also discovered "I don't like you mommy". LOL That didn't bother me though, I just thought it was so funny and typical. Then my 2 yr old is on a "no" kick. Grrrr...
I hope you have a relaxing weekend!

luvmy4sons said...

Oh sweet sister you are not alone. I have been there multiple times-many times in a day! I SO understand about the ADHD...and it can be overwhelming. I SO understand. His grace IS enough. That is a great song to think on and a great scripture to remember...when my 17 year old looks at his very near future I get so afraid for him wondering how he will figure out an occupation...and my youngest has so many significant learning abilities...But here is one thing I would like to encourage you about...God loves the impossible looking situations. He always blesses those people who have the greatest needs with the greatest blessings because it brings Him glory. No one can claim it was in their own might. Your son will be fine...and you are the perfect mom for him...God's Word tells you so. Even your moments of impatience and anger will serve to mold your son in a way that is needed...God's arm is not too short to save. He alone is the God of all flesh! Bless you for your transparency. Heavy sigh...I so understand. Big hugs to you today!

Leah said...

Karen,

Go over to my blog and click on the "Think Crazy Love" link on my sidebar. Go to this week (Chapter/Week 2) and read the question about worry and stress that Chan posed in his book "Crazy Love". Those paragraphs slayed me and stepped on my toes like mad.

I can so identify with your day. Seems those kinds of days come all too often.

Leah

Melanie said...

Many of my moments of frustration and worry are due to the "distractions and low ability to focus" that one of mine deals with. And so, of course, I deal with it, too.
God always has a plan.

Proverbs 27:19 said...

Karen, this is the kind of stuff that helps me to not feel alone and ashamed for how I feel at times.

So, although you may feel bad about focusing on your struggles, just know that it has encouraged someone else.

"God gently reminded me of His faithfulness. He reminded me of the prayers of faith I have offered for so many of my dear friends. And He assured me I could trust Him for my situation, too..." Karen, I have been in this situation so many times, I can pray for others and then when it gets to me, I "fall to pieces!!!"

How is it that we can be so encouraging to others and then when it comes to ourselves...

smooches,
Larie

JanMary said...

I find it so encouraging when you keep it real :)

Thanks.

Chatty Kelly said...

We ALL have these days, sister, and let me tell you...If I came over here and all you ever blogged about was how great things were at your house, I'd stop coming because I couldn't relate. The good news is we're all in this together and we all know God is big enough...sometimes he justs wants us to lean on him a little harder.

km said...

Thanks for being real. Where would we be without HIS GRACE?!

greta said...

Thank you for your openness in your own struggle. And thank you for the reminder of HIS GRACE! Its the ONLY thing that keeps me sane in my struggles.

KelliGirl said...

Oh, Karen how I can relate! Being a mom is such a sanctifying process isn't it! It's so easy to get caught up and lost in the chaos of the moment. Thank you so much for sharing your insight and refocusing on the Truth that gets us through these storms.

I LOVE this song!!!! It's words are so true and so comforting!

Hope you got to recharge this weekend.

kreed said...

Sorry you had one of those yucky days but I am glad you reminded me that His grace is always enough!